Isaac E J
Isaac Asbury (pen name isaac e.j.) is a queer, disabled writer in Leeds, U.K. Their work can be best described as the space where left-wing politics meet personal confessions, documenting their lived experiences as a transgender and neurodivergent individual.
"I wrote this when I reached a peak of frustration and hopelessness directed towards the U.K goverment's treatment of trans people. After years of medical gaslighting and the agonising wait to be seen by a gender clinic, I found myself waking up each day to headlines about trans siblings being killed, finding myself lost scrolling in transphobic comment threads. This poem was the accumulation of that."
The UK government and helathcare system failed me
Not quite work
but stretched far from play
I could never be loud enough
– I know that now
My misfortunes are Nothing
in opposition to contortions
and fruitless testimonies
Convince me I’m wrong!
about the thoughts my mind concocts
like he did
when he felt bad
because he did bad
but didn’t want to admit it
That I could never be fluent in my native tongue. say I pause
too often and mispronounce
the simplest phrases; It’s not personal
just a war
on my intelligence, my body, my very being.
Chastise my hurt
and prove my point time and time again
with those careless slurs
and thinly veiled arguments
If you’re going to kill me,
I suggest that you stop boasting
and get on with it
Do I take you by surprise?
Don’t mistake my apathy for acceptance
I’m used to fighting for survival
so forgive my armour for rusting